Keeping the Faith

When I was young, everything seemed so simple.  I felt the calling towards are and literature, so I decided I would be a writer and write a magical book like The Great Gatsby or Alice in Wonderland.    But no matter how fixed I was on my path, something always drew me away and I trampled unexpected roads with great twists and turns.  What I learned is that we are all Pinocchio:  We begin our life, waving to out mother and father with our schoolbooks in hand, hoping to do well.  But we are turned this way and that.  We make mistakes, we move from our course, we falter, flounder, and may suffer remorse, rebellion, or a sense of defeat.  We seem to lose our way.  But no matter!  If we keep our little flame alive, our first feeling of enthusiasm of who we are, without the influence or intervention of others, we will prevail.  And like Pinocchio, despite all his transgressions, find the courage to reunite with our little flame and be rewarded.  And the reward is this:  We become ourselves.

In my life I have made many mistakes.   Sometimes I was careless and inconsiderate and down right hurtful to others.   Fate drew me into a different kind of life, not the one I envisioned for myself.  This is not what I dreamed for myself – sometimes I felt it took me from my true path, that of a writer.  The choices in my life, have brought me to experience many new things.  They have given me a oppourtunity to see the world, to meet amazing people and concern myself with my fellow man.

I have lived a life of love.

Through my family and life I have learned the final lesson of Pinocchio: what it is to be human.  And always through everything, through sacrifice and success, I have tried to stay close to my flame, reminding me who I am.

The cricket tells Pinocchio, “Always let your conscience be your guide.”  These words,  by a small insignificant insect, give us all we need.  The best person to tell you who you are, what you should be, is ultimately yourself.


~ by cutefatgirl on February 25, 2011.

2 Responses to “Keeping the Faith”

  1. Very thoughtful. Life can feel like a random, funny thing, but really, it is intentional. Your life is a sum of all the choices you have made.

  2. Loved this! It is so true! All of it…and you are a great person!

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