living well is the best revenge…and other meaningless platitudes.

I can’t feel this way forever.  It won’t be forever. I remind myself of these platitudes and find some comfort in them.   I have only talked to the kids about two minutes this week.  How could I miss them all so much?  My heart is still breaking, this really sucks.  My body just hurts. My body betrays me.  It won’t eat or allow me to sleep.  If I tell it who is boss, it only makes me sick.   How could it be like we never loved at all?   Thoughts of him fill my days and he haunts me at night.  I can feel his hands, I still reach for him in the night.  I still want him.    I will reach the top again, and until then … at least I am pretty.

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~ by cutefatgirl on September 12, 2010.

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